:lightbulb:

i've finally got it.

i've been in a funk beyond belief since the middle of january. maybe even the beginning of january. i don't know anymore. but it's been too long, and people are noticing. matt, my parents, my friends - they know somethin's up. i've been attributing most of my depression to my lack of stimulus during the workday. i come into the office, get online, facebook, email, read kristina and marisa's blogs, facebook, burn a cd, eat lunch, blog, facebook, twiddle my thumbs, and go home.
i'm a mess.

but we've all had boring jobs before. i used to work in the music department office, for pete's sake. so how come this time i keep thinking i need some words of wisdom from zoloft's bouncing white blob?




THE SUN!!!!

just because california is a naturally warmer state than new york does not mean that we have 365 days of constant sun. january and february are just as gloomy [well, almost just as..] as most other parts of the country. yes, we have days of 75 degrees and sunny here and there, but they are not consistent enough to pull me out of this funk. all i've gotta do is make it another few weeks and i should be home free! [i hope!] WHAT A RELIEF!


MR. SUN, PLEASE COME THE FUCK OUT TO PLAY BEFORE I GO INSANE.